Friday, December 31, 2010

random (again)

it's new year again..
two thousand and eleven..
my new year eve is never special..
except the last two years..
it's because i celebrate it with you..

but now..
my new year eve, it's not only lonely..
but also empty...
just like something is missing inside me..
it's hollow..

well whatever happen to me in my new year eve..
i just hope you would happy with yours..
and happy with your life next year..

do your life well..
and i'll be fine..

Monday, December 27, 2010

my train

a year ago..
december 27th..
i waited for my train to came..
it took me to my heart destination..
with full of love heart..

today..
december 27th..
i waiting for my train to come..
but it's different train..
different destination..
and different heart..

my heart wouldn't be the same anymore...

Sunday, December 19, 2010

eleven

it's been 11 months
almost a year
and i feel like..
i just didn't move to anywhere
i'm not waiting for him
i don't have any power to do that anymore
but i'm here
with no differences
i don't have another someone like he did
i don't have another love like he's got
maybe i have a crush on someone
but i know it's not a love
i know it clearly

almost a year..
and still...
i can't find another love..

p.s : God i need another love :')

Saturday, December 11, 2010

mimpi

kamu datang di mimpiku..
sekali..dua kali..tiga kali..
berkali kali..
tanpa aku tau maksudnya..

people said..
if someone came into your dreams a lot..
it means s/he is missing you..
is it?

i don't want expect anything..

lagi...

desember..
setahun lalu di bulan ini..
hati ini di sayat
di remas
di buang

di akhir cerita
aku tak bisa lagi rasakan hati ini ada
rasanya hampa
lubang menganga di dada

setahun
aku rangkai lagi serpihan kehancuran
aku lawan kesakitan
walau jujur, tak tertahan

dan malam ini
airmata yang aku tahan sekian lama
keyakinan yang aku tanam dalam dalam
runtuh

hati ini
hancur
lagi....